I feel like you're just tapping out here, dude.
People do stupid things. At the end of the day this is a community over the internet and this isn't going to dictate your life? Yeah it's stupid that you lie in general but you could have lied to more important/impactful people. Just don't be a fucking loser like that again.
If what people think about you on a private server, or on the internet in general, really impact your life that much then you need to straight get some hobbies my bro.
I'm not sure if you're wanting people to try and convince you to stay, because no one is going to care if you stay or go. From an outsiders perspective though, leaving partially for being bullied/hated is the biggest cop out ever. Just play the game for fun. How it's intended to be played.
Anyway, all drama aside, if you do decide to bugger off then take care of yourself. Been nice knowing you and hope you fix whatever it is you're wanting to fix. If you stay around then i'll be chatting with you, mate.
Hooray.
- Dylain, Immortal Fox and MT like this