Hey there Evil Joy!
Let me just start off by saying I am in no way a professional on this matter, these are just my opinions and what help me. Ultimately you know yourself best and if you think you need to talk to someone I urge you to do it
With that being said something that I find that helps me is trying not to look with such a short sight, both in game and IRL. I can say that there are days that suck or won't go your way, and there will be days where you feel ontop of the world. What I mean by this is look down the road, which admittedly is sometimes hard to do. I guarantee that if you could look back 2-3 years you'd never imagine to be where you are now. Sometimes it's hard to lose sight of this in moments of being down.
For the game I HIGHLY reccomend joining a clan or a discord where you can find more people to chill with and hangout. Playing a game in a VC with others can do wonders and make the grind of the game that much more enjoyable!
Ultimately do what makes you happy and if you do get back into it I hope to see you around in game! :)